We tied the knot! So happy!

I’ve been busy the past few days! I’m officially a Mrs. now! 🙂

As of May 2nd, Kuba and I are officially husband and wife. 🙂 We had a simple minimalist ceremony here in Dundee, Scotland. Our friends Ivy and Leo were there to witness it and support us. They also helped us photograph and film our big day. Thanks to them for everything!

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We’ve planned to get married for a while now but kept this on the down-low because we wanted it to be a surprise. We also didn’t want it to turn into a big to-do because we didn’t want anything to detract from our original intent behind getting married. In the simplest terms, we married each other because we’re in love and we are committed to being together forever. We’ve known this pretty much from the start of our relationship. 🙂

We didn’t want a large ceremony or many people involved. We didn’t want to wear anything “fancy” since we don’t have clothes like that. We also didn’t see the point in purchasing new clothes just to wear them once. Minimalist problems! 😉 We figured a casual ceremony fits our personalities anyway.

As my dear friend Ivy pointed out after watching my wedding vlog, our day was filled with laughter. There was absolutely no stress involved. It was truly the best day and a blissful start to this new chapter of our relationship!

After the wedding, we headed to The Flame Tree Cafe for lunch. What better way to celebrate! I actually planned the wedding for 11:00 so we could get lunch after. 😉

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Even though the nature of our relationship won’t change because of this official status, we’re still very happy about it!

Thank you to everyone who’s since congratulated us on social media. It means a lot that you care! And even if I don’t know you in person, I still feel connected and wanted to share our day with you. I feel like the only way to increase happiness in the world is to share it. We are fortunate that we have so much to share! 🙂

 

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Am I being judged? Or am I judging myself?

After a much-needed break from proper blogging, I feel like I want to give it a go again. Now that I’m creating videos for my YouTube channel regularly, I don’t have much time to focus on writing. I miss it so I think I’ll aim to post on this blog at least once per week.

I’ve been back in Scotland for almost three weeks now and will be off to Thailand in a few days. It almost seems like I never left because everything here is the same. I’m back into “the swing of things” fine but I’m also struggling to come to terms with my eating. I’m still trying to sort out categories of foods: the foods I’m allowed to eat vs. the foods should I avoid, and then, of course, the foods I actually want to eat. I imagine these categories in a Venn diagram.

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The foods I’m allowed to eat include fruit, veggies, potatoes, whole grains, and rice. The foods I should avoid are things like overt fats, processed foods, hummus, cakes, bread, other gluten/malt containing foods, and coffee. My problem is that I want to venture into the ‘foods I should avoid’ circle as often as I like without feeling guilty or judged.

I feel like I’m internalising a lot of judgement when it comes to the foods I eat. On one hand, I don’t care what other people think of me, but I can’t shake the feeling that some people are judging me for what I eat. They say they aren’t judging me personally, but if they seem to judge other people for eating similarly to how I’m eating currently, then it should follow that they are in fact judging me for eating the very same way.

Does it matter if others judge me? Not really, but I don’t like the feeling of being perceived as weak or deficient just because I eat differently.

I’ve been vegan for years now. My opinions and preferences for foods have changed. Yes, I was interested in a raw fruitarian lifestyle during the summer and still would be happy to live that way depending on where I end up living. I’m eating healthy cooked foods now (at least what I deem to be healthy, some people would argue otherwise) and I enjoy them. In the summer, depending on where we travel to first, I’ll probably revert back to eating mainly fruit simply because my favourite fruits will be in season and widely available.

Maybe it’s just me, but I never view eating habits as something that can be set in stone. I can never make the claim that I’d only eat fruit for the rest of my life, or that I’d never eat cooked food ever again.

If you don’t like eating cooked food, don’t eat it, but don’t judge others as deficient because they enjoy it. And similarly, don’t judge raw vegans just because you can’t imagine living that way. How about we don’t judge others at all? (I found Leo Babauta’s article, Letting Go of Judging People, helpful today.)

Or maybe my problem isn’t that others are judging me. Perhaps I’m too self-critical? Because for some reason, I can’t allow myself to not be strict when it comes to eating, so I feel judged or guilty anytime I relax my eating standards?

Sometimes I think it would be easier for me if I didn’t publicise the food I eat on social media. Perhaps I should just disappear for a bit and eat my food alone.

No more labels.

I’ve decided to not push myself to adhere to any specific label when it comes to my diet. I love eating fully raw fruitarian because I feel the absolute best eating that way, but honestly, I haven’t had an interest in eating that way since I arrived in Dublin. I’ll probably go back to eating only fruit in the summer when watermelon is abundant as I’m travelling around Europe again, but for now, I’m going to eat other things as well.

I’ll still aim for high carb low fat meals but won’t stress if I eat more fat from time to time. I expect to keep eating lots of fruit in addition to cooked veggies, potatoes, rice, whole grains, and even legumes when I want them.

Loading up on fruit this summer has taught me to pay closer attention to my body and how I feel. I’m better able to realise when I’m genuinely full and now I only eat when I’m truly hungry. If I have a large lunch that keeps me satiated late into the night (like I did today), I don’t force myself to eat dinner. And now I don’t eat when I’m bored.

I’ve been super stressed out about trying to force myself to eat only fruit since arriving here, and thanks to my friends Carolina, Sheila, and my boyfriend for helping me realise that I’m the only person putting pressure on myself. I can eat fully raw whenever I want, but I don’t need to stress out or feel badly about myself if I do choose to eat cooked foods provided they are still healthy and nourishing.

I’m hoping to start cooking more once I’m back in Scotland this weekend (still minimalist cooking, of course) and plan on sharing my cooking methods and recipes here on the blog and on my YouTube channel.

If I had to choose a label to describe my way of eating, I’d choose several: high carb low fat, whole food, plant-based, healthy vegan with little to no processed stuff.

What do you think about labels?