I have a little over a week left in Palma and I’m getting restless to move on. I think the restlessness comes from not having a schedule most days. Usually, I’ll run a few errands each day and take photographs while walking about. Some days I’ll devote more time to writing if I’m feeling particularly inspired.
I haven’t been motivated to write lately and I’m not sure why. Maybe it’s because I’m walking miles in the sun each day, so I’m more tired than I’m used to, or maybe it’s because I’m currently living apart from my boyfriend. He inspires me in so many ways and I don’t feel whole without him.
Before I met Kuba, I was content with existing alone and didn’t understand how anyone could be so infatuated with their partner. I didn’t understand when people would refer to their partner as their ‘other half.’ I would think to myself: Seriously? Do these people really feel incomplete without someone else? How is that possible? Shouldn’t you feel complete on your own as an independent person?! Surely they must be exaggerating.
I’ve never come close to feeling that way about anyone. When in a relationship, I never wanted to be with my partner 24/7. I always needed my space and time alone. I needed time to hang out with my friends and wanted to live my life apart from my partner. Often I was glad when they’d be at work, or on a trip, because then I’d have more time to myself!
But now I finally understand where these people are coming from; I feel incomplete without Kuba near me. He’s always on my mind no matter what I’m doing during the day. Without him, I feel empty. Not completely empty in a hopeless sort of way, but I just know that no matter how much I enjoy my life now as I travel around, it would always be better if he were here sharing these experiences with me.
We were inseparable when I lived in Scotland and now I can’t help but be a little bummed out that I can’t hold his hand as I walk around all day.
From our very first conversation, I felt compelled to know him but didn’t have any idea what would happen down the road. I didn’t know that we’d start dating, fall madly in love and commit to travelling the world and spending the rest of our lives together, I just knew I had to be close to him and couldn’t imagine not having him in my life.
I still can’t believe that this is real life and not a dream. Every day I wake up grateful that we met. I’m so lucky to have him! I can’t wait until I return to Scotland in December because then we will never ever be separated again.
Are you in a relationship?
How did you meet?
If you’re vegan, is your partner vegan as well?